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InstaTay+ Living On The Future

7:23:00 AM

See what's been happening on my Instagram lately…

Now on to the sob story…feel free to leave, I just needed to vent a little.

This week has been hard. Not to say that a lot of weeks aren't difficult, but this week is testing me emotionally, mentally, physically, physiologically, etc, etc. I realized that I don't appreciate the "now" like I should. I am constantly living for the future and what it is going to be. The problem is, I don't remember a time when I didn't live like this. I hated high school so all I thought about was college, college wasn't necessarily the time of my life so all I thought was working and being an adult, now that I am an adult all I can think about is becoming older and more settled into a career that I love and married with kids.

Sometimes, you wish and hope and pray as much as you can and nothing happens. So then what? You keep wishing and praying and hoping. I am in between a rock and a hard place. This new job has me exhausted and my biggest fear was that my blog would take the hit and yesterday it did. I understand at this point my blog doesn't make any sort of income but I just wish it would so I could do what I love everyday. I think about starting a business…and I have everything ready, but again, the income isn't there to get it off the ground. Overnights, weekends, long shifts are ahead and I am asking myself how I will get through this? My body is already fighting back with my first "half" overnight.

I am trying to find the light at the end of the tunnel, a sign that will keep me going, we will see how that goes.

In any sorts, have a great Thursday!! It's almost the weekend!!!!

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  1. love all your festive instagrams! i have to start following you on it :)

    hope your weekend brightens things up!! waiting is hard,believe me,I know,but it all works out in the end!! or so i keep telling myself :)

  2. Sending you lots of positive vibes! One of my favorite quotes: "Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.” I hope things improve soon.


  3. Beautiful photos! Life can be such a struggle and it seems that we are constantly looking to the next big thing. If you're anything like me, doubt is always there too. Is this right? Should I try this? Life takes courage and determination and huge leaps of faith. Thinking of you and hoping that you find some peace and strength!

  4. Not that you need any of my advice but sometimes the blog has to take a back seat to real life. Sounds like you are going through an adjustment period and just know it's okay-and that it will all be okay. Enjoying the moment is hard for most people. When I get like this, I go home pop a bottle of wine and relax. Then I refuse to look or get on the computer. Sometimes a timeout and a break is all you need!

  5. Thanks Victoria…I need to keep telling myself that!!

  6. Thanks Taylor!! Love that quote, writing it down now!

  7. Thank you Anne, yes doubt plays a big role…thank you for the continued positivity and encouragement!!

  8. I think you are right…I need to take a break, maybe taking a few days away from the blog, getting life in order, and relaxing will be a good thing. I need to have a clear mind before we seat #Blogmas14!!!