You Are My Sunshine - Tay Meets World

You Are My Sunshine

2:35:00 PM

I know many of you, more like most of you, have experienced some sort of loss in your life. Whether this loss being a loss of a loved one, friend, colleague, or acquaintance, it is difficult no matter the circumstance. When I say loss, I don't necessarily mean death…it could be anything. As many of you know I work at a care center (nursing home). Due to HIPAA rules I am not allowed to say names or give out specific details but I can tell you this…one of my residents has become a part of my family. Over the past 10 months i've worked there she has unknowingly wedged a large space in my heart just for her; we will call her my sunshine. My sunshine has Alzheimer's disease and the disease has taken over her brain to the point of no return. She doesn't remember much but she always remembers her prayers and her smiles. This lady, my sunshine, has become like a grandmother to me…only more.

Well, yesterday I noticed something was wrong with my sunshine. I was sitting beside her (like I normally do) and she all of the sudden sunk to one side. Long story short, the nurse declared she had a stroke…the rest of the night she wouldn't respond when you said her name and she wouldn't open her eyes. Before I left I gave her a big hug, hoping and praying that it wasn't the last. I told my sunshine that I loved her and she stayed sleeping peacefully. 

My family is very small; my father has lost both parents on his side and my mother's side has many issues to the point of no communication. As many of you know, I am going to school to hopefully be a doctor and one thing I hear from so many people is that a doctor cannot get attached and must be very strong when dealing with patients. I say screw what they say. I think I can be the best doctor just because I DO care too much. I want to be that doctor who uses all her free time sitting by her patients and getting to know them that much more. What I am trying to get at is I feel as though I experienced a loss. My sunshine has become my family, my old lady friend, and she holds such a near and dear place in my heart. Although she has not passed she certainly gave me a glimpse of what it would look like if she had. 
There are points in your life when you realize nothing else in the world matters but the people you love. I realized that today…nothing matters except those people in my life. Thank you to all those who care for me and have loved me, and will continue to do this…it means more than you can ever know.

This post was written for my sunshine. I only hope that your journey to Heaven will be peaceful and calm. I pray that when you go, you will take with you the knowledge of my love and care for you.You have given more to me than you will ever know, and for that I am blessed. You will always be in my heart. 

Have a very Blessed day my friends.


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